i started to deteriorate as well. the cancer started to spread. i was like a skeleton with skin, that was it. because i weighed about 80, 85 pounds. and i had these big open skin lesions, one here on my neck, one under my arm. i had tumors, some of them the size of lemons, all the way from through out my lymphatic system. and if i lied down, i would choke on my own fluid because my lungs were filled with fluid. i was in really bad shape. and i was in a lot of pain. but i was fighting. i was just fighting to stay alive. >> do you remember one of your worse the days, what that felt like? >> oh, towards the end, my worst days, i couldn't walk any more. my muscles, like in my legs, completely deteriorated. but one day i was actually february 1st, 2006. i was just so tired of fighting to stay alive.